Saturday, February 25th, 2017

Weekends are usually pretty weird. I attempt to relax and make it a habit to sleep in, but there are always some problems that I have to face. I often feel the need to re-organize my room or work on building up a series of posts for my website. There is never a break in time for discovering what I want to do, and by the time I figure that out, its time for me to go to work. I figure that’s the result of holding two jobs, but the added stress really isn’t bad.

While this isn’t the first time that I’ve held two jobs, I know that this is the first time that I’ve decided to keep both of them. The added benefit that results from two locations providing me a windfall of cash is rather high. The additional strain placed on my body may not be the best in terms of a long-time solution, but I seriously need the work. There is only so much that I can do, so I figure that holding both a main job (25+ hours) and a second (10+ hours) will allow me to get myself out of this slump. I’m already beginning to feel the drain that holding both of these positions creates, but I figure that this will be a temporary solution (3 months max) until I join the military.

Speaking of that idea, I’m beginning to regret my foresight into this decision. Four years is a sizable amount of time, and while I’m sure that I’m making the right choice in terms of my position (Space Systems Operations), I can’t help but wonder how that length of time will affect me. So far, I can only look a few weeks ahead. The idea of signing away the entirety of a college education (only to receive one in return) sounds a bit asinine. In total, I’ll be spending seven years of my life simply working on getting a singular degree, when I could have finished it five years earlier. I’m not a fan of losing the majority of my twenties to a singular purpose, mainly at the loss of my youth. I already know that I’m going to be rather upsetting at the age of thirty, but there is only so much that I can accomplish in ten years.

As of now, there is a bit of a goal setup in my mind. I figure that over the span of this next decade in my life, I will finally discover what it truly is that I want to achieve. I’ve never really known what I wanted to become from a young age, so I think a few more years will help me figure that out. My main hope is that this job will allow me to pursue a job working for either NASA or possibly private space companies like SpaceX or Boeing. The training that I can receive from this position will become invaluable to me, so I’m ready to move forward with my life into that of a STEM career. Better late than never.